Baby Boom

When I was pregnant alot of other people I knew were too. They say every time the economy is bad there's a baby boom. I was happy to be pregnant and I've talked before about always knowing it would be my one and only time. I got the most perfect little girl. I couldn't have drawn better blueprints. She's amazing and I'm so happy to have her. I'm also glad given my situation medically that I got my tubes tied. All that being said is it just me or is everyone pregnant? My friends with babies Riley's age or younger all seem to have another bun in the oven. Not all of them where planned, but everyone's happy. It got to the point where I don't want to go online. I would never begrudge someone sharing their pregnancy with their loved ones (I certainly did), but it makes me so sad. I know that there's nothing rational to it. Even if I had a great pregnancy the first time I wouldn't be ready for another baby this soon and I already have 2 kids at home. Logic just doesn't enter into it. Typing this is emotional. It started out as a feeling that my baby was growing up and I missed the days when she was smaller, but that's not it anymore. I just envy the pregnancy. I want the belly, the kicks and all that potential. I want to take more belly pictures, decorate another nursery and dream up more names. Maybe I will have more kids some where down the line, but I know I will never be pregnant again. I know this with absolute certainty. I also know that it is unquestionably the right thing for me, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. I'm sad for the belly that will never be.