Back to the Crib

Deja Vu! I am exhausted and ready for the baby to sleep in her own bed. We did this when she was 2mo old. From 2mo-9mo she slept through the night in her own crib most nights. When she was 9mo I had surgery and she started coming to bed with me. I brought her to bed because I couldn't get her to/from the crib at first and then when she was sick I kept her in bed with me so I could get more sleep which ironically is the reason I'm kicking her out of my bed now. I was worried about sending her back to the crib and then going back to the hospital and her feeling abandoned or associating the crib with mommy disappearing. I asked about this at my mommy group and the wise words that answered me were "you look tired. You have to sleep to be ready for your hip surgery." Oh. yeah, me. I forgot about what's best for me again. Happy mom, happy baby. Sleep all round. Back to the crib! I was so anxious about re-transitioning her I kept rushing bedtime. I bathed her and put her in comfy jammies hours before it was time. As soon as she wanted to nurse I went into her nursery turned on the lullaby cd and the nightlight and started rocking her. It was too early she wanted to play. I tried putting her in her crib and she played in it. So we took her out turned on the light and put her on the floor with her toys to play. That's when we made the second mistake, Mike closed her door. She started screaming. I think she thought she was in trouble. Eventually we put her in the crib again, but now she was really upset. In the end I brought her into bed with us. I nursed her, calmed her down, and when she was asleep we put her in the crib. She slept from 9:30 to midnight and after a few minutes was back to sleep again until 4am. At 4am Mike brought her to me and I nursed her and changed her wet diaper but she refused to go back to sleep. Mike took her back into her room and rocked her and sung to her until 5am. Finally he put her in the crib and left the room. She screamed for a gut wrenching 10min. First she called Daddy and then Mama and finally she was screaming Baby(as in you forgot the baby). I watched the clock it was 10mins and then she laid down and slept. We survived even after all our mistakes. She spent the whole night in her crib.