Nightmares

I have been besieged by bad dreams lately. I wake up around 3am and spend 45min-2hrs trying to fall back asleep. Never since late pregnancy and having a newborn have I slept so poorly. I think I've crossed the threshold from exhausted to certifiably insane. It's bad.

On a typical Monday I get Riley ready and out the door. Then I work alongside my cleaning help up tidying up so she can do floors. Then I write, do laundry and put away clothes until Isaac comes home from school. I assist homework and go about my domestic chores and so on until Mike and Riley come home. Then it's dinner, bath and bed for kiddos.

Today I stayed in bed while Mike dressed Riley, I did pull her up on the bed and put a barrette in for her. Then I laid in bed. Instead of my typical anxiety when my friend was texting that she'd be late I was relieved. Once she arrived she cleaned I laid in bed. After she left I got up and ate and got back in bed.

Napping hadn't helped much yesterday and didn't seem to be happening for me today. Later in the afternoon I decided to get a hot shower to get my blood pumping. I thought maybe I could shake the tired. Wrong.

I got clean, dressed and productive. Way productive. Isaac had a good day so he was cheerful and helpful. I got a lot done probably a day's worth of work at least, but I couldn't shake the tired. I've been taking vitamins and not skipping meals. Aside from the nightmares and waking up at night nothing's different. Unless you count wedding planning. Grumble.

Now I'm worried I might be getting sick or something. It's probably just wedding stress and over activity. Fingers crossed tonight's better.