Losing Time

I lost some days. They got sucked into the abyss. I was experiencing serious back spasms in the evenings when I normally write my blog. I was doing ok, treading water, but I got several days behind. I decided even though for months now I have written a post every day (even if I posted them late) I would let a few days go.

I was able to get things under control with medication and minimal rest. I think every time I hit a point where I've healed some more I fall apart. My body developed habitual ways of moving over the course of my lifetime and now there is metal in my spine. My muscles fight against it, but they lose. When they have lost for long enough they spasm. Not like "ouch a cramp." More like we're going on 10min of not being able to sit forward or move my arms. Shallow breathing, anyone else would go to the ER kind of spasms.

I just hope this isn't a lifelong issue. I have enough of those. So, between my pain issues and some borderline manic hormone related issues I have let 8/4, 8/5 & 8/6 go un-written. Maybe the whole episode was a humility lesson...or at least an exercise in realistic expectations. Keep up the house, care for the kids, plan a wedding, start an e-course and write two blogs, perhaps it was too much before spasms were added to the mix...