When You Just Don't Like Them

I have been hopelessly in love with Riley since before she was born. She's amazing. Most days I enjoy her company more than I have words to express, despite the hard work. Today was an exception.

Riley's beside herself about the two year molar forcing its way through the gums the last few days. I am in some intense pain from the slide incident as well. I knew sky diving and roller coasters were forever lost to me when I became bionic, but slides...who knew? I digress, Grandma came to be with Riley because I was in bad shape today.

I've been pretty wiped dealing with Riley's teethy tude, house stuff before our party and juggling the blogs. Today, I just sat on an ice pack. It was like the early days after the surgery. I watched and listened, but instead of my usual delight in her antics today I was annoyed. Today, I wanted her to stop screaming and throwing herself on the ground over every little thing and grow up.

Some of the day she was my sweet little girl and I enjoyed her. Most of the day she was hard to take. My mother and I were not nearly equipped for all the fits today. I just didn't like her today. I know it was intensified by my pain. I also know it was temporary. I just needed to say it out loud.

Even as I type this my normally compliant girls is giving Daddy hell. I can her wailing from the bedroom. She's not herself today and he has more patience having only been home a few hours. I considered going in for back up, but my stomach turned at the thought. Also, it's dangerous for me to be around a thrashing toddler when I'm injured.

Good night, little terror. I'll like you again tomorrow.

ps: Mike got Riley to sleep and then kicked something leaving the room. Normally, this would be no big deal, but tonight she woke up screaming and didn't stop. He tried to reassure her, but she refused to be comforted so he gave up.

I went in and wrapped my arms around the sobbing girl and started singing softly. She calmed down and climbed on top of me hugging me with her arms and legs like a tree frog. She was shortly sound asleep. Mommy's a hero.